Seems like I keep waiting for something that'll never come...something that always seems within my grasp and then it's not and then, I don't know why I'm waiting or what I'm waiting for...

I don't think I've ever really accepted the card I've been dealt by God until now.  All because of my uncle who chooses to complain about his whole life to everyone and how he has to deal with this and that, Oh and I love this one that he always uses on us, "I'm going to lose my job soon, who wants a 50 year old when they can have a guy half my age with more knowledge about today's technology?"  In his last message to us (a few other brothers-in Christ and myself) he complained about how his son stays up until 4AM to finish his homework and how he feels so bad for his son and pities himself for having a sleeping disorder.  He goes on to talk about how my dad and other uncles don't understand him and don't bother to ask.

Anyway, I realize how sad his life is and I don't want to live like that.  God has put us here on Earth to be more optimistic.  To set examples for others to see that if they don't dwell on the negativities of their life, life could be so much better.  Well maybe it's because God has been putting so many positive things in my life recently that it doesn't seem like there is much to be sad about.  He's blessed me with a job, with a bunch of rowdy kids of course, but none the less, I enjoy working with them. He's allowed me to pass all my exams and move onto the next stage of my life.  

There are many things in life that I still want, but I'm blessed to have what I have.  My uncle chose the school for my cousin, I believe and I think that lost of hard work and working til God knows when is part of the territory.  Anyway, I just pray that he can finally get past his grudges and move on with his life.  Life isn't fun or pleasant when all you think about it the sadness you have.